I Did It Again

I hurt someone's feeling again.

Sigh...

Feel so bad
but it'll be even worst if I give him false hope.


Wasting too much money on me

will only make me feel guilty.

Not that he's not good enough,
but it is me who's not ready to commit myself in a relationship yet.

I hope you understand.




I'm sorry...

All this while...

I'm wrong?

I never thought you can forget about it so fast.

Even for me,

I couldn't.

I remain single because I respect our past relationship...
and I will continue to do so for now.

Anyway,
I sincerely wish you'll be happy =)

Kenangan bersama, Tiada kulupa

Didn't know that you have such big influence to me

until I wanted to blog

'about you'.

Yes.

erm...

Not you,

but...

It's because of you ><.

I mean...yea...

Now that we're not as close as what we used to be...

ah~

I should say we're not close anymore =/

So,

I thought you don't mean so much to me anymore.

. . . . .

I saw someone looks exactly like you

in LRT when I'm on my way home today.

I thought he was you

and I was like o.0!!!

Both of you have the same deep, big, round eyes =).

But he's not as muscular as you,

and I think he's a lil shorter than you.

. . . . .

Ah~~~

Suddenly miss you a lot =(

I wonder how have you been doing right now.

I wonder if you ever think of me right now.

I wonder if you still remember what you've told me.

I wonder if you still remember those days....

Here,

I dedicate this song to you dear Abdul Rahman Abdul Hamid =)

Memori Tercipta

by Shila

Bergetar jiwa dipersada bercahaya
Pertemuan harapan pertama kalinya
Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi
Sukar dipercaya pintunya terbuka

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

Mengalun suara sesuri bisikan hati
Seiringan mencari haluan berseni
Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi
Tiada pon terduga pintunya terbuka

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada ku lupa

Yang terpahit jua termanis
Semuanya bagiku terindah
Kuingati buat selama-lamanya

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama (3x)
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

*Wish list*

There are lots and LOTS of things that I wanted to buy

So so SO SOOO much.

Here’s my running wish list for 2010/2011 ;D

First of all,

I need to reduce my dark eye circle T.T

I need an eye cream soooo much…

waalahh~~ 24K Bio-Gold anti-dark circles essence

Envy those pretty babe that has long and thick lashes

That they do not need any falsie ><”

And now L’oreal Paris has this product known as

Lash Renewal Serum

I wanna grab one of this XD

~envy no more~

Every lass out there would die for high heels

And 6 inches tall heels will actually kills you, girl =.=

Thus,

I want a pair of 2.5 – 3 inches tall heels.

But nice lower heels has almost extinct ><”

arggg~

I’m getting boring with my bag.

It seems like I have too much white bags ><”

I need something new and attractive…hee~

I’m desperate for braces!!!!

I need to put on braces!!!!

I must put on braces!!!! ><

In order to get rid of my flat breast,

I think I need this >>>

-Triumph International boost and comfort bra-

But one piece of this will cost me RM300++

Ouch ><”

Wait till I become rich first.

Curling tongs~!!

-Cute pink curling tongs-

=D

I don’t really need this laa…

But sometimes wanted to get rid of my boring long hair.

So

.

.

yea~

hehe =P

I’m broke currently.

I’m so so broke T.T

So,

I’ll have to keep the list until next year la =(

And this is the reason why I’m broke

Look at the Disney cuties plush toy

They’re just too cute!! ^-^

I’m gonna grab myself a Pooh plush toy.

Haiz….

That’s why I’m broke lorrr

I spend too much in Guardian la.

I get only one sticker for every RM20 I’ve spend

And now I’ve only collected 9

T_________T

16 more to go so that I can buy the plush toy at RM39.90

Coz I know I cant collect 60 sticker…it’s IMPOSSIBLE!

-Off to bed-

Chaos~

It's A Happy Day =)

STPM had just over~!!!!

*woohoooo~~*

We try to do something crazy before we leave our beloved school.

So, what we do is…

We press the car’s ‘hon’ button as we leave the school XD

Kinda scare the security guard will scold us =$

*kekeke~*

Five of us;

-YiTing

-Kay

-Candace

-Esther

And me

Go to Cheras Leisure Mall.

We have lunch at Wong Kok first before heading to movie.

Wanna watch Rapunzel but the only available time is at 10.10pm T_T

And we thought of watching Narnia.

But we ended up watching Just Call Me Nobody.

Xiao Xiao Pin is damn cute lo <3

But he appear for about 5 minutes only

Ishhh!!

Feel cheated by the poster.

Overall,

The movie is so funny

But no point wan ><”

. . .

Next station is Candace’s house^-^

I keep chanting in the car that the rain will not stop

So that we wont have to go to swim lo.

But the weather dun like me that much la

And the rain eventually stop when we reach her house =S grrr…

I have no choice but to wear Candace’s sis’s swimsuit

Coz I dun own one since I dunno how to swim.

Show off my sexy back with tat swimsuit XD

But with my flat breast and oily thighs,

I looked sucks ><”

Play with the pool water.

Play till fingers all ‘chao pei’ dy =P

Kay Kay try to teach me how to ‘kick’ water

But I’m just too stupid la (>.<)

.

.

.

.

Then went to mamak king for dinner.

.

.

.

End of the story =)

Arigato <3

hee~~

. . .

Stay at home whole day today.

Thought of going for facial treatment

But fully booked dy.

Mum bought me nasi lemak for lunch today.

The nasi lemak doesn’t taste very very nice dohh

But feel extremely happy with the meal

Coz the nasi lemak seller is a nice person ^-^

When one's mind goes the other way

I actually wanna give this post entry's title as

Kanasai.

Because I wanted to express

how kanasai My Mathematics T 1 was.

But just before I write anything on this page,

I received a sms from a dear friend

telling me that

my junior's ex-boyfriend

had committed suicide.

I went to his Facebook page

to check out on him

and

I find out that it is true.

http://www.laksou.com/?m=nation_more&id=5371

He jump from his house 2am in the morning today.

A sudden depress stroke me in the heart.

I do not know this guy....

He's just another boyfriend of my junior.

But...

It is so heart-aching when I read

those thousands of comments

from his friends.

I cried when I read this:

"FUCK U SOHAI KONG ! JUMP MAT 7 ! U DUMP ALL YOUR FRIENDS HERE U KNOW !! FUCKER SO LAN 9 HAI !! U tot that is game ?! very fun ?! cb u made me cry cause of u !! FUCKER !! RETURN LIVE NOW !!"

"sohai fucker kong wake up la IDIOT ! NOW ME SPAMMING YOUR WALL JOR ! YOUR ACT NO MORE!! WAKE UP N STOP ME LA !! WTF U !!"

Yes.

People are angry with you

because you left them this way...

All of a sudden...

I agree with those who thinks that

He's so damn fucking stupid to die for a girl...

A 4 months old relationship.

And he is stupid enough

to choose to die

when he knows he loves his family a lot

and even post that on his Facebook wall.

I'm not scolding him...

Just ....

I do not agree with his way of handling stuff.

sigh...

Pity him who cant think rationally =(.

Oh well!

This is it!

When there is Life, There is Love.

That's is why Life is always related to Love.

People survive and live with Love.

When we're born,

we are loved by our very own family members...

Our relatives...

As we grow up,

we found another little soul out there...

of similar age and we make friends.

And so, we are loved by our friends

Soon,

we went to school

and we are loved by the teachers...

And

as we grow older,

we found someone...

of similar interest,

of similar perspective,

fun to be with

and we thought;

"We are meant to be together"

Just like any other teenagers out there,

we involve ourselves in a relationship.

And...we are loved by 'our loves one'...

Some peoples just could not

differentiate the relation between earthly Love and Life.

They tie a dead knot between these two element.

And so,

When their Love ends,

Their Life ends.

Leaving behind footprints in the heart

of those who have had you in their life.

Grief and sorrow of those

who loves you surround the atmosphere.

How pathetic!

One should love oneself first

before they love others.

Only those who appreciate life

will know how to love.

Getting no Love from other people

Doesn't mean Life is no longer meaningful,

Doesn't mean Life is no longer colourful,

Doesn't mean Life have nothing better to do than to DIE.

We Love because God first Loves us.

God's Love is no other like the way earthly people love.

Only His loves for us will NEVER Fade.

So,

Bear In Mind!!

When everyone turns their backs on you,

Do Not Give Up Your Life!!

Because we can always turns to God =)

"Be strong and courageous.

Do not be afraid or terrified because of them,

for the Lord your God goes with you;

he will never leave you nor forsake you"

Deuteronomy 31:6

--Rest In Peace, Alvis Kong--

Would you please STOP discouraging me?

Why must you discourage me??

I’m NOT a small little girl anymore.

I’m going to be 20 already.

I can think better than the way I used to be.

I’m getting more mature

And,

So I can think rationally.

Yes,

You are right.

I never experience it before

So I won’t know how pain it is.

But,

You never know

How pain it is when I looked at my own picture.

You never know

How I wish I can smile freely.

You never know

How it affect my lower set of teeth.

You never know

How bad it had affected my oral health.

You never know…

There was once I try to tell you

But you will never listen.

You just….

…Just will not listen to me.

I’ve decided

And

I’ll endure the pain.

So,

Please….

Please stop discouraging me.

Sigh…..